She looked into your eyes, and you let her - you let her suck in every breath you took since you were brought to life. A life that for so long, rendered you a still born. Dead. Still. Mute. But you let her, you gave her access to that muscle that relentlessly beats - day in and day out - to have you so willingly have her crush it. But your heart is no match for her ice cold soul, that ever so cunningly seeps and infects your every breath. The very same ones you have her breathe. Because you see, you let her. You had her delicate fingers wrap around your neck, and ever so patiently let her strangle you. You gasped, she smiled, you begged, she laughed. But you let her. You let her crush your limbs and drag you down six feet under into pitch black darkness. You saw nothing but her shadows, heard only her faintest laughs, and when the moons aligned, tasted her bitter tears. You let her. You let her crush your lungs and drown you in the saltiest of waters, and when you begged and begged for her to set you free, you were caressed in her smiles. Pearly whites that gave you the air you so longingly pleaded for. Breathe.
But you see, it was the light that guided you; hers and only hers, ever so brightly it guided you to the waters where she waited every night. Every night she yearned for nothing else but to see your smiles. And you let her. You charged her protons and had her traverse the galaxies; touch naked skin; discover untouched land. You had her freezing cold keys seek refuge in every house that populated your soul. Door after door, broken down. House after house, vandalised - until you lay naked, vulnerable against everything that once brought you to life. You gave her the ropes that cast you into the seven seas just to see her light. Just to see those smiles, to hear her laugh, to make her happy. But she yearned for nothing else but to darken your glow. You lay motionless in the waters every night awaiting her unblemished glances. But you were only welcomed with darkness. Every night you waited.
And now, six feet under, you wait for the rest of your life for the very same soul to anchor you back to the light. But there’s no anchor in sight, only darkness. You shouldn’t have let her.
But you did.